Ive matured, opened up and became more of myself. Not been so in depth with the circumstances because that's never been who I am, it's all about the effort. So I now work in a way to only produce the effort part for others to see the best part of themselves from reading and connecting to me, to overcome the external by going internal. Nobody is going to ever feel the way I did at those times with no hope in or around me. Not in my presence, not on my social media, not in my life! I treat every day and every person like that day I had only my breath left .... The times with people in my life are precious, time is my biggest value and times with my daughter, friends, strangers, animals are all mindful because I know what it feels like not to have that time. Example being if I get told I'm not getting access then I don't complain or explain anymore I just focus on what example do I leave behind for my daughter with my actions as her father, friends and to others around me. I know the peace now because I once felt war, I know the success now because I once felt failure, I know the love now because I once felt no hope.
The heartbreaks and pain when I look back were the lessons I needed to open up and become more of myself on the journey. The family hurt brought me back to my own Mum and Dads journey of going through the same thing with me as a kid. It gave me an in depth understanding that all people go on a journey in life to create a better and more fulfilling life. I know later in life my daughter will grow up and look at what her daddy done with his life, with all things as kids always want to know when they grow. For example if I was in a pub watching football then later in life my daughter maybe would go to the pub to find out why her daddy did? I certainly don't see my daughter running 100 miles but I believe she will look to my life like others do and take the good parts and leave the rest. I try to look at everyone I meet as an old friend, a family member or an animal in the field now as they are on a journey without wanting anything other than the presence and the breath. Yes there is times when the chest goes out and the heart stays strong as battling is also part of life in a rough city but I'm 30 this year and am now living the life I created and it's phenomenal.
There's deep reasons for all things of my life ... I once started the running journey and made videos at the finish line for my daughter. Then I pulled out of races because I was now having the great times with my daughter, which got some criticism but I criticism helps on the journey too. I thought do I have to give everything up now I've washed the goal but realised the process is always better than the prize itself and I can do it all now. I run for freedom and health to keep on becoming the best version of myself, meditate, eat, hydrate and sleep well for these reasons also so I can be in the moment, and focus on all things around. The races that hold significance to me are 26.2 miles, 100 miles and the 24 hour race so that's what I'll do and by me perusing this part of life it helps me be in the moment and express mindful attention to those I love. I'm not the best or fastest runner, I'm just the best me and enjoy sharing that part. Love the times with Jay also by helping him as his guide runner, my friends through running are more competitive in the sport so they help push me to get faster times also, as I push them too. In other areas of life it's all about putting fruit on the table along with delivering a service of compassion and health to others who connect and keep on enjoying the whole lifestyle now.
Yes there's still lots of crazy things happening. I stay in
Glasgow and it's a fast paced environment and YES being a father who's not in a relationship with the mum is tough, getting up at 4am is unusual, the fruit & veg based diet isn't common, people say lots of things good and bad but I'm just me and I love it. I love me, it's taken me many miles, many experiences, many solitary cells and solitary paths, many breakdowns to create the powerful breakthrough of empowerment in myself and I will now spend the rest of my natural life giving that to all of those around me. I thought all through this journey when their was no hope that someone would have gave me a cuddle and said that's its ok its over, or when I hit a finish line or goal I cold relax but life is a continuos process of growth, progress and contribution so I decided to cuddle and fall in love with myself and step forward this way opening up to all other things, people and experiences as I go. That's why I stayed single though & that's why I stayed away from groups, crowds and all the other things because I was finding love in the places of myself that I never knew existed 10 years ago! I'm free now to be, do and give whatever I want to the world around me and my focus is on freedom and health. The more I give, the more I experience myself.
Thank you all for reading, for your input throughout the journey, reading, connecting, sharing and caring as looking back on the journey. Writing was the journey to the inner depths of myself from looking for self with, to self discovery, to self awareness to now wanting to keep on giving as I keep on living. I don't want to keep on chasing success milestones to write about. I just want to share the parts that help those who read my words grow in their own health, freedom and do that by giving all the ways in which words transformed my own life. I now want to give back all the things that led me to self love, self care, values, discipline, acceptance, peace, health and freedom.
With videos, blogs and the odd photo or finish line along the way.
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