So court was rejecting legal aid back then, the first lawyer shouted in my face that I'll get nothing but a contact centre for life because of my illness as I refused to listen to him. When you have a mental illness there's a stigma to it, you need to accept tat and my daughters mum uses that and in grateful she did. As time went on I got a new lawyer Gemma who was nice, you see why I don't follow titles, one lawyer said I wouldn't get anywhere and the other said we can try. So contact centre was arranged, it's like a little prison but I turned up every week with milk, nappies and singing with my daughter and sneaked a selfie or two back then. Your not supposed to but my family, friends and everyone kept asking me how she was & I wanted to just hide away and cry back then. It's tough when the world asks how your heart is and it's not with you, so I had to deeply meditate and deeply find the solution and I did.
The first marathon untrained was easy, it physically hurt running 26.2 miles without training but it didn't hurt mentally and physical is nothing, the body is just skin, hair and teeth it's the mind that's everything. So I went on and lost 9 stone, became an athlete and inspired others along the way with the story that made me do it. I just didn't want anyone to hurt like I have, that goes way back and is what also took me to veganism so out of suffering I've found my spiritual family and church with nature and the animals again. I went on papers and my kids Mum phoned up and got compensation paid out because of it as I'm not on my daughters birth certificate, that's the way it works. But by taking me off the internet search on that paper put me on the rest of them, with photos of my daughter as we tried to work things peacefully and my kids mum said she supported what I was doing now. But still said I couldn't have access because I stayed in high flats which is notorious for violence, do I got a new house beside the canal. Then it was because my daughter is allergic to cats, I had two kittens & had to give them away after 2 years, then found out my daughter wasn't allergic to cats it was dairy.
I knew that no matter what I was going to do with my life she wouldn't accept me as me, we tried to get back together and settled court with a handshake but I wasn't loved for me it was really about my lifestyle now instead of me. All of me and it had to end, I gave it everything but sometimes people just can't accept you and that's ok. I'm grateful for it all, not seen my daughter in 3 weeks and it's back at court but all I can do as a dad or as a person is live by example, but I'm not going to hold back from life at all or say look at me I'm good enough now can I see my daughter, I just love the way our law system and country is, that my daughter has a great building block in life being born here. Education, lifestyle and opportunity and I'm an example of what following the law and educating yourself can get you in life.
Listening to elvis Presley just now singing Frank Sinatra's song "my way" and it's great, the best revenge is massive success says Frank, but I think the best revenge is freedom to be you. "To be your best self for who and what you love, no matter what, be the example not the opinion". So I accept everything and with the mantra the door to my house and my heart will always be open to my daughter no matter who says what. My little girl laughs and smiles with me all the time, says I love you daddy, I'm running strong and even pretends to like broccoli because her daddy eats it. We eat fruit, drink water and run along the canal & when I'm not with her that's what I do to, every step amd every breath she's in my heart. Her mum says I run to much and that's why I'm not racing anymore, my weekends are free for times with my daughter for when I'm allowed access. I run against my watch, to be the best me but I ran to all those finishing lines and podiums did one thing. To be with my little girl and she's been at a marathon finish with me, and the Father's Day men's 10k too that I signed out of the west highland way this year for so I could not ask of anymore from the running events I've participated in and sport as a whole. I've had everything, but will be back for specific race. 3 a year I've set out for 26.2, 100 miles & 24 hour race just to remind me of the whole journey and enjoy the ultra life. (Beyond normal)
I've found my peace, I run 70 to 100 miles a week, moved on with my life altogether and now work with psychiatrists explaining mental health recovery, positive psychology (PRT which post traumatic growth, growing stronger rather than weaker in adversity) and I also get offered so much more along with learning financial education in my spare time, life always gives me what I need to become the best version of myself. I love sharing the education now, reading books and enjoying life on my terms. If I have cats or a new doggy at my house in the future then they are staying, just like the people that love are staying and if the courts say I'm only getting 1 day a week access for an hour instead of the overnights we agreed last time, then that 1 hour will be the most mindful hour of the week! I'm never going to let anything make me not love the opportunity to be alive. I love life, and yes it was pain that matured me, because I used it to make me better and not bitter and in that process I became a man. It's love that makes me strong, my daughters cuddle doesn't leave my memory and her saying "I love you daddy", the connection with animals, the strangers I meet, my friends and the close people in my life are all that make me who I am and all the reasons I continue to expand, think and grow rich is down to love.
So not everyone who goes to family courts is angry about it, some people just understand that the deeper sorrow carves into our being, the more joy ww can contain and it's a very beautiful state of mind to have. Namaste ❤️
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